Friday, June 3, 2011
Ok, so there is this older lady I work with that is part-time - only 10 hrs a week. I have been open about my surgery at work. This woman is truely a kind person but is as dumb as a rock. She asks my about what I can eat and how much I have lost on a daily freaking basis. I am a Probation Officer and have to be a bitch so much that I atleast try to be nice to coworkers - so, I play along with her little game. Today, like every week, she asks me how much I have lost. I tell her 81 lbs. She then says "Wow, I can't believe you have lost that much, you still look the same". Eighty F'ing Pounds and I still look the SAME!! WTF!! I swear to you I had to fight the urge to tell her to "Fuck Off", order a pizza, and go to the bathroom to cry. I do not think this lady is capable of being mean, I honestly believe this is what she thinks. Three explainations have occured to me 1) She is too dumb to know what she really said, 2) She meant what she said and I haven't lost enough weight to show a big difference to her, or 3) She really is a nice person and didn't see me as the huge tub of lard I was before. Who knows. I have got to move past looking to others to validate me.